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In the space between Awake and Asleep
Where dreams and reality mix
And wishes are horses

it has taken me 13 days to bring myself to write this for reasons I can't explain. I remember getting ready to write this on the 30th of June but something happened. I got lazy, lost in a dream, lost in relaxation or maybe lost in the vicious cycle of procrastination. I briefly even considered merging June and July but that would go against the streak I have going. Even if a little (a lot) late, here's the recap for June 2025.

In June I fell in love with nature and the sky all over again. I think it has been a while since I saw a butterfly but I saw a few of them around in Yellows, whites, black, orange and some sort of green-tinted white. It's cute how something seemingly childish could give so much joy and with the rains in June, nature was spreading out colors and I was soaking them in, in lots of greens and tiny little pearls of flowers.

June opened up with a birthday but also Eid and all the chores and "fun" that comes with it. As usual we went out with family and most of the pictures I have are of cupcake and her cute outfits. I wouldn't say I enjoyed Eid because I felt really anti-social during the time. I wanted to be home and in bed but going out during Eid feels more like a compulsory activity you can't seem to avoid. Still it wasn't that bad, I had some fun with cupcake and a few new friends from the community.

By the second week, I had lost my cycling streak and still currently trying to get it back. Maybe it's the weather or re-discovered laziness but I can't bring myself to go out on the weekends like I used to. To think I wanted to add wednesdays to my stamina training 😂. I'll get there I guess maybe before the end of July. Even though I wasn't exercising, it was around this time that I had some alone time. Spending 24hrs alone with my thoughts just seems so precious these days. I even tried uploading some of the pictures I got during this time to unspalsh, some were rejected though and I haven't taken anything worthy of upload since then. There was another birthday here too (mysterious I know 🙃).

I'm starting to see why maybe my brain put off writing this, it seems like June peaked in the first two weeks and the rest is just a blur of random things. Oh, I watched an actual Hollywood movie for the first time in a really long while. Before I watched Ballerina in June the last one I watched was Twisters mostly because of the tiktok hype. Also I can't believe people take their kids to watch gory movies (there was an 8 year old looking kid and I think another one younger).

Have I mentioned school yet, you are all tired of me by now but so is the plight of a flexible student. I am happy to announce that I'm almost done, I'm not quite there but it's enough to at least say that I'll be done this year, in sha Allah. Look out for that update (she said trying to act famous). I had so much to do for school both annoying and enjoyable and I'm still doing it. It's sort of annoying that I can't just be accepted and move on but "Academics" 🙄. Talking about morale draining stuff, I'm still not where I want to be in my career but I'm learning to think of it as a process not a "hop and skip".

I wrapped up June by completing the book "How to Kill your Family" and started the last book in my homicide themed trilogy phase, "The McMasters Guide to Homicide, Vol 1: Murder Your Employer". It's a really fun book that looks into another fantasy aspect of the homicide theme. Imagine Hogwarts but for killers 😅. I like the diversity of the three books (I'm hoping I mentioned the books aren't related in anyway; I just happen to figure out I had 3 books in a similar genre and decided to read them as a themed phase). One book is about a killer that never got caught and recieved satisfaction, another is about a killer that didn't get the satisfaction but also never got caught and the other is breeding killers (deletists as they are called in McMasters). I promise you, I'm very normal.😊.

That's it for June, sort of uneventful, a little depressing but with personal celebrations and joys making a SLUGGISH MONTH OF MUSINGS.