...like a nap on a cold sunny sub-saharan autumn day when you sleep rested and wake up tired

Somehow I don't even know where to start writing from this time. It took me a few minutes just to get a title for this recap and I'll confess that the only thing that's not making me late is the need to tick things off my todo list. This month didn't really have a theme, it was more of a getting my bearing type of month; funny how that's happening in October when people are starting to make resolutions but it is what it is.

October started with a bang with a wedding and all the drama that comes with it. I took a break from the bootcamp and played hooky and showed up for one of my closest friends. We were together after a while (well almost together) and we took the time to discuss important stuff and how to tackle them (look at us, adulting like we know how to 🙃). There was also really sad news at the end of that week. After the wedding it was back to wrapping up for the bootcamp. Honestly, at that point, I was surviving on my last thread of "peopling endurance" counting down the days. The closing ceremony was hectic but we went, we saw and we conquered. I'm aware that the first two weeks of October had a lot of "us" and "we", that's how social I was 😌.

After that, I started trying to get back into my natural rhythm of work and other stuff but then I got more home chores. My sister travelled so I became the sole chore doer of the household 🫠, I don't even need to explain how stressful that is but yeah. That started a wave of minor procrastinations. I skipped journal entries, slept early (even for me) and planned and not completed any of my academic paper thingy. The journal paper is the worst because I kept planning and failing until October ended and now it feels too overwhelming.

After a while though, I was able to adapt to my new lifestyle and work out a flow that still seems to be working, enough to even give me some nap time during the day which is wonderful. The most interesting thing this month is slowly seeing my fav flower filling the side of the road. That weed with the mustard colored flower that's always out of reach for me. I've loved seeing it as far back as I remember, just traveling and seeing yellow dots by the side of the road. It has always managed to somehow be right there but out of reach, till date, I've only been able to see it up close once and I cherish that picture so much. I'm hoping that once I restart my stamina training, I'll find it on my route and have another image to last me a few years. Did I just write alot about a flowering weed, yes, yes I did 👀.

All that aside, my plants are doing great, I have 4 types of mint, 3 of which are thriving and one that I'm trying to help grow. I have no idea what their names are but I'm like 50% sure that one is spearmint. They smell nice though and that's it. I'm trying out planting garlic again and it looks okay for now. Hopefully, it doesn't become a disaster like the last time. Did I tell you guys how I ordered flower pots and ended up with nursery size pots? Well, that's my Temu story 🥲.

By the last days of October, my rhythm was kind of back but for some reason I was really sleepy, I kept skipping journal entries and sleepy too early. It has continued into November too because it's taking everything in me not to go to bed and doom scroll until I fall asleep. I found out that those dramabox movies are called "Vertical movies" and these things have taken over my entertainment. I watch mine on youtube and they're just to cliche, impossible but fun (brain rot material tbh). Last week I came to a realization that I've gotten fixated on that type of entertainment that I haven't watched a single episode of anime for the whole month. Blasphemy! I knowwwww. That's gonna change very soon. Talking about anime, I found out that one piece might become seasonal and thank God for me not watching it in a while because I'll at least have something to keep me company for a while.

Ultimately, October was really just me getting back to my original lifestyle after deviating for quite some time while also trying to factor in all the new stuff that has come to stay in my life that I might need to pull into my arguably stable system. I deserve to pat my back for surviving this MONTH OF UNEXPECTED EXPECTATIONS.